4 days in...progress, rants & goals for this week

4 days in....

Well I am doing pretty well. I am off to a good start. 4 days without meat so yay! I am not eating 100% perfect. though I am not eating bad eithe. I just need to tighten up the portion control and work with adding in some better foods.

I did my Walk Away the Pounds video today and yesterday. I am amazingly suprised at how smooth I am taking back to working out. I thought it would be just as hard as when I first started at the beginning of last year. It has been like 6-8 months since I quit working out at all. I am not saying it wasn't hard because I was feeling it but I wasn't dead afterwards,

This has inspired me to push myself farther. Starting friday I will up my time and add in the my fitness coach for the wii and maybe do two 15 mins/mile with the WATP videos. I just keep the images in my head of the biggest loser. Those people do amazing things and push themselves so far. People far bigger then I am so there is just no excuse and the only thing holding me back is my excuses and lazyness lol

I also did some Wii tennis today (I did about even against the computer) I like never miss their hits to me but I hit out of bounds alot lol. I then tried some boxing but I just do not get it and I won but I don't know how or what was going on there.

I then tried to do my Wii just dance and omg it wouldn't work. 46 Like the disc is scratched or something and wont read it. so that upset me big time.

Wed & thurs my husbands days off so idk I gotta stay on plan. We are supposed to go to the mall so that is some walking around. Atleast I hope we go lol



Ok now my rants lol

First my sleep pattern is all screwed up big time. idk I began just staying up all night sleeping all day but then I was getting really really depressed and I would force myself to stay awake as long as I could. I didn't want to go to bed because I knew I would lay their in the quiet of the darkness with just my thoughts to torment me. It was this dark scary time and it was as if every bit of my body was screaming no don't go to bed.

This caused me to have this cat like pattern lol I was never going to bed. instead I was just taking naps here and there throughout the day/night. Which completely screws with you. I never knew what day it was or time or anything lol

I am trying to break myself out of it but it is not easy. I am getting up super early and all awake. But my husband is still asleep so I gotta be kindof quiet (tiny apartment) and then I am getting super tired in the afternoon taking a nap and sleeping until 1-3am and waking up ugh. I just gotta get that sorted out big time.

My other problem is that I am bored :( Sadly horribly bored. I used to fill my days with computer games- sims or wow. and now I don't really have a ton of interest not to mention that it is just not a good place for me right now. If I start playing hours fly by before I notice it and I have just been sitting on my ass the whole time. Nothing gets done and it pushes me back into very bad patterns/habits.

So what have I been doing instead? reading forums and websites all day long instead... sigh. It is partly better because I can get up and do other things better and more often. But really it is still me sitting on my butt.

But I don't know what to do. I can not drive. I don't know anyone here. There is nothing interesting to walk to near here. So i am sitting alone in my apartment with my cats until my husband comes home and then I go to sleep. I was just sitting here staring at the wall today like umm I need something to do. sigh sigh sigh.


My goals this week:

Step up the fitness!
30 mins a day (5 days a week) of WATP
My fitness coach & other wii stuff too probably

Food: keep tracking every single day
I think I am going to buy a few easy things like lean cusine or something that I can just eat with some veggies and a big salad for dinners and then for lunch maybe do grilled cheese with fruit, cottage cheese and carrots? for breakfast stick with the oatmeal. for snacks idk yet lol

I think for right now starting off I need to focus on portion control and habit of meals at the same time each day. So idk if it isn't 100% perfect. and then slowly add in better and better options. I did this before and it helped alot.