Thanksgiving is now over but it went fairly well diet wise I think.
Wed morning right before we left I check all the animals, make sure they have plenty of food and water. Well my rats were sicks :( They had porphyrin around their nose and were sneezing. At first I thought it was blood but then I remembered reading about it and went and looked it up again. It can be they have an infection or from stress.
If any of my pets are sick I automatically freak out with worry, stress and guilt that it is all my fault. I have way too many pets. I love them but I shouldn't have gotten so many. Before I was so depressed I couldn't take care of myself, getting out of bed was a chore. How was I supposed to give them the proper care? They always had food and water but not always the right attention. Now that I am doing better depression and health wise things have gotten better but at the same time these last few weeks I have been so so busy :(
My husband doesn't understand at all. He just dismisses my feelings. He is like they have each other and their cage is giant and packed full of stuff, like their cage in rat terms is bigger then our apartment for us lol he exaggerates. But it really upset me that he didn't seem to care. I didn't even want to leave them I was so worried. I knew if I left and something happened I would have been resentful towards him for making me go and how am I supposed to enjoy myself while I am worrying & afraid they would be dead when I got home :(
But after a fight with him I ended up going anyways.
I was already stressed because rats do not live very long, about 2 years. And my girls turned a year old and I was all worrying about them. I can't even take them to the vet right now. More guilt on my part. I always hated that, I think if you own pets you have to be able to take care of them and that included vets. I have probably spent $600-$700 on my cats this past 6 months alone :( But right now things are insanely bad money wise for us. My husband taking the demotion which meant a pay cut, me starting my business and doing it so stupidly that I spent far more of our savings then I should have (yay look more guilt). We kept saying that we would budget & be smart & all we really did was cancel netflix...we continued to spend spend spend. And then in a blink of an eye the money is gone.
Right now after we pay the rent for dec we will be living pay check to pay check. We have to get things in order. Thankfully with the friend moving in, the money he will pay us will help.
Honestly I don't know how to budget and such. I am horrid with money. For one thing before like 2-3 years ago I never even payed attention to anything money related like my entire life. So it is all still fairly new to me. I took over all the bill paying and I am great with that, making sure everything is paid on time perfectly.
But with shopping and stuff not so much. I pretty much just walk through the store and throw what I want in my cart, within reason. I even make a list but don't always stick to it and even when I do it is still expensive. We prob spend near $180 ish a week at the store for just us two. Where does all that go? I have no idea. I just don't pay attention to what anything costs. If you asked me what one thing I bought every week from the store costs, I couldn't tell you.
I think partly my mind is just not grounded well for that stuff. I am whimsical~ lol
But that really has to change. I just need to make a list and stick to it and not waste money on silly convenience items. I'd like to get down to spending just $100 or less a week for sure.
- Anyways, Thanksgiving was nice. We ate early at like 3ish because we had to leave at 7 to drive home so my husband could go to work that night. Lame. Time sure flies by so fast.
Dinner was great. It is actually really funny I don't really ever seem to overeat on Thanksgiving. Like my portions are either normal or small even. I think it is because there is so much stuff that I just take alittle of it all. Plus I am extremely weird and do not like my food touching (except the potatoes and turkey). So it means less room on my plate I guess lol.
The bad side is that MAJOR CARB OVERLOAD!!!! eek! Potatoes, stuffing, rolls, crescent rolls, & corn. Then ofcourse desert. All of my favorite things are the carbs too lol. It is not diabetic friendly at all. I think next year I might make a veggie dish to bring and not eat the corn. I don't ever even eat corn at home anymore. I would rather I get my starchiness from something else lol.
Wed morning right before we left I check all the animals, make sure they have plenty of food and water. Well my rats were sicks :( They had porphyrin around their nose and were sneezing. At first I thought it was blood but then I remembered reading about it and went and looked it up again. It can be they have an infection or from stress.
If any of my pets are sick I automatically freak out with worry, stress and guilt that it is all my fault. I have way too many pets. I love them but I shouldn't have gotten so many. Before I was so depressed I couldn't take care of myself, getting out of bed was a chore. How was I supposed to give them the proper care? They always had food and water but not always the right attention. Now that I am doing better depression and health wise things have gotten better but at the same time these last few weeks I have been so so busy :(
My husband doesn't understand at all. He just dismisses my feelings. He is like they have each other and their cage is giant and packed full of stuff, like their cage in rat terms is bigger then our apartment for us lol he exaggerates. But it really upset me that he didn't seem to care. I didn't even want to leave them I was so worried. I knew if I left and something happened I would have been resentful towards him for making me go and how am I supposed to enjoy myself while I am worrying & afraid they would be dead when I got home :(
But after a fight with him I ended up going anyways.
I was already stressed because rats do not live very long, about 2 years. And my girls turned a year old and I was all worrying about them. I can't even take them to the vet right now. More guilt on my part. I always hated that, I think if you own pets you have to be able to take care of them and that included vets. I have probably spent $600-$700 on my cats this past 6 months alone :( But right now things are insanely bad money wise for us. My husband taking the demotion which meant a pay cut, me starting my business and doing it so stupidly that I spent far more of our savings then I should have (yay look more guilt). We kept saying that we would budget & be smart & all we really did was cancel netflix...we continued to spend spend spend. And then in a blink of an eye the money is gone.
Right now after we pay the rent for dec we will be living pay check to pay check. We have to get things in order. Thankfully with the friend moving in, the money he will pay us will help.
Honestly I don't know how to budget and such. I am horrid with money. For one thing before like 2-3 years ago I never even payed attention to anything money related like my entire life. So it is all still fairly new to me. I took over all the bill paying and I am great with that, making sure everything is paid on time perfectly.
But with shopping and stuff not so much. I pretty much just walk through the store and throw what I want in my cart, within reason. I even make a list but don't always stick to it and even when I do it is still expensive. We prob spend near $180 ish a week at the store for just us two. Where does all that go? I have no idea. I just don't pay attention to what anything costs. If you asked me what one thing I bought every week from the store costs, I couldn't tell you.
I think partly my mind is just not grounded well for that stuff. I am whimsical~ lol
But that really has to change. I just need to make a list and stick to it and not waste money on silly convenience items. I'd like to get down to spending just $100 or less a week for sure.
- Anyways, Thanksgiving was nice. We ate early at like 3ish because we had to leave at 7 to drive home so my husband could go to work that night. Lame. Time sure flies by so fast.
Dinner was great. It is actually really funny I don't really ever seem to overeat on Thanksgiving. Like my portions are either normal or small even. I think it is because there is so much stuff that I just take alittle of it all. Plus I am extremely weird and do not like my food touching (except the potatoes and turkey). So it means less room on my plate I guess lol.
The bad side is that MAJOR CARB OVERLOAD!!!! eek! Potatoes, stuffing, rolls, crescent rolls, & corn. Then ofcourse desert. All of my favorite things are the carbs too lol. It is not diabetic friendly at all. I think next year I might make a veggie dish to bring and not eat the corn. I don't ever even eat corn at home anymore. I would rather I get my starchiness from something else lol.
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