Cats remind me not to take myself too seriously

I love my cats. I am a huge cat lover & ofcourse I have the greatest cats in the entire world! Kye who is my baby, loves to remind me why every chance he gets.

The last few days I have been doing pretty good staying on routine. A few slips here or there but pretty much on track all the way! So every morning after my walk I stretch, do some yoga and meditate. And every morning Kye attempts to interrupt this.

I am sitting on the floor meditating and here he comes standing smack in front of me staring at me and just meowing so loudly. Then he headbutts me. Meow, headbutt, lick my hand, repeat. lol I open an eye and peak at him and he pushes his head forward at me and meows again.

Perhaps he is against inner enlightenment? lol Or he is thinking- "why are you just sitting there doing nothing when you could be petting me?" though more then likely he thinks me being on the floor equals kitty love time lol.

All I can do is smile though. It is a nice reminder not to take myself too seriously. That perfection is a silly notion and sometimes I just need to smile and pet a cat. Though trying to hold a yoga pose while he is doing it is not so easy!


Anyways I am exhausted, a million times over. I have been nonstop cleaning and rearranging everything in my apartment and am close to finished but still have an insane amount more to do. I knew it was dirty and it would be a big job but wow didn't imagine this.

I am doing a spring clean type of situation. My husband's friend is moving in the 26/27th so I need to not only clean but also rearrange everything so that all the crap from one room fits somewhere around the rest of the apartment. I feel like I am playing tetris. We have alot of crap lol

I mostly blame my husband lol He is a huge packrat. He wants to keep everything. I hate it. I was joking with my sister that if I left him alone for a year I would come back and it would be something out of hoarders lol He would probably build a labyrinth out of bottle caps (for some nutty reason he can never throw them away i end up findign them all and tossing them ugh). He didn't find that amusing lol

On a positive note everything will be clean and actually organized. So much clutter. We never have enough space so things end up just getting shoved places and I hate that. So this is a good chance to clear out alot of crap. I have thrown alot away. And I have sworn that I would keep stuff clutter free.

All this work has just been wearing me out hardcore. I went from not doing anything to working like nonstop all day & on top of that working out. It should be lovely on the weightloss front, though my diet has not been good this week. I was not going to flat out start the diet until next week. I know putting it off is silly or even dumb somewhat but I am too poor and was not going to waste all that food. But I did act smart and didn't binge out and payed attention to portions somewhat and how I am eating. That is a plus. Next week I go shopping and will have a fresh start in the kitchen. yay

It also doesn't help that my sleep has been all kinds of weird. I have been having really weird vivid bad dreams. I also keep waking up at 4am having to pee like mad lol. Then I try to go back to sleep and the last few days I haven't been able to until today. Where i did fall back to sleep and slept till 8. But before that I would lay in bed tossing and turning trying to get back to sleep until my husband got up at 5;30 for work then I would get up too.

So then since I woke up so early and after all the work I did all day I would be about passed out at 4pm & usually asleep by 7 or so lol which is so weird for me.


GOAL Reward: Last year sometime when I was back on track trying again... I made a promise that once I hit under 200lbs I would dye my hair pink. Today i went to get normal hair dye and saw they had dye kits for purple, blue or pink and instantly remembered. Right now I am a bit over 206 lbs, and I think I will still do that once I hit ONEderland! Maybe go purple instead of pink though idk yet lol I can't believe I am sooo close. I also tried on my size 18 jeans which i fit into when i first lost the weight and I can button them! I wouldn't wear them because they are far too tight a fit and it would give me major muffin top issues and I might not be able to sit down lol. But I am sooo close!!

I can do it!!!

Of Blue Hair & Tattoos ~ Goals & Rewards!

Exercise:

My Fitness Coach 30 mins (127 calories burned)
Wii Fit Rhythm Boxing 10 mins (47 calories burned)
Wii Free Run 1 mile 14mins (112 calories burned)
Food Tracked: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_tracker.asp?id=CAELESTIS&dte=1%2F24%2F2011



So First of all I decided that I would like to set a goal/reward for myself. Once I lose 20ish more lbs which will put me at 195lbs. I'll be in Onederland! And have lost a total of 36lbs yay!

Anyways when I reach that goal, I am going to dye my hair BLUE! I have always wanted to do it and always felt insecure, self conscious. I want to hide not do things to draw attention to myself or stand out :( And I want that attitude to change to be who I want to be without fear.

I'll go and treat myself to getting my hair trimmed and then have them bleach the hell out of it lmao!

Also I decided that for my birthday which is way far away in September I hope to be close to my goal of 165 if not hit it. So as long as I stay on track I want to get another tattoo.

I really really want a tattoo on my wrist. I was thinking of something spiritual and meaningful to me. I really loved the idea of a triple moon but instead of the moon/circle in the center of two crescent moons I would do like a heart. But then I saw this star and smacked it inbetween two crescent moons and omg I LOVE it!

My DH will flip out. I am sure it will be a fight. He wasn't thrilled with me getting the butterfly on my ankle. But it is my body & not like I am getting something across my forehead or a whole sleeve done lol So he can just deal with it I don't care....

The moon is a very important symbol in my religion. It symbolizes the Goddess and femininity, and to match my goals it represents change ~ the ever changing phases of the moon. The star is a symbol of balance. Each point represents an element earth, air, fire, water and spirit. All tied together.



On another note... I have not been doing well at all. I have not been eating enough calories. :( Bad me. On top of the exercise it is probably not good for me at all. I think part of it is some subconscious fear of eating too much but mostly I think it is just bad planning and time management.

So I have decided to be a bit more specific in my schedule and planning. I need to set a bed time for myself & stick to it and I'll get 9 hours of sleep and make sure to get up the same everyday. Then I am going to split my meals up into 5 meals for the day. Three normal ones and 2 snacks but close to the same calories.

I will make sure I get enough calories in each day.