I haven't written in a bit, I just have been feeling meh. I haven't let it throw me off track though so yay. I think just all the changes I am making are throwing my body for a loop. I have to remember I am diabetic and that probably is some of it. My DH says it is because I am just active now where before all i did was sit and that totally could be a chunk of it. I just hope things balance out.
Speaking of my darling husband, he said some really amazingly sweet things to me yesterday. I was naked and I totally hate being naked in front of people. Not that I am naked in front of anyone other then myself, my husband and that cats! lol But he told me I was so beautiful and I was just like you are crazy. Then he took my hands and was like I know you want to lose some weight but really to me you are perfect just how you are I wouldn't change anything.
It was epically sweet. But at the same time it gives me a prang of concern. Which I know right my DH says the most perfect thing and I have to find something negative about it.... But honestly it just makes me wonder if he will still find me attractive when I lose the weight?
He has always liked curvier women. With meat on their bones, alittle pudgy. Every woman, actress, whatever that he has ever pointed out had some extra weight on them. Not like obese at all but like I am now, though technically I am obese weigh wise! But I am sure you get what I mean.
But my idea of beauty is the total opposite. I love tall and super thin, alittle athletic is fine too. And I don't mean anorexic but definitely very thin. I have major girl crush on Angelina Jolie & Blake Lively. Both of who my husband doesn't think are attractive at all.
It is doubtful that I will ever get that skinny so perhaps it doesn't even matter that much and either way it is not going to happen for a while still lol. But I do know that when I reach close to my first goal (165lbs) my husband will tell me not to lose more weight and prob make comments about it....
Anyways that is just what is filling my head right now... I am doing good with my fitness. I walked 9 miles this week. Yay me. But the weather is getting nasty. It snowed last night but only left just enough to cover the ground. But it was alittle bit slippery in some spots. I can fall down when the ground isn't wet and slippery so it sucked I had a few close calls this morning but didn't fall.
It is also really strange that when I first start walking it isn't that cold but as the sun starts coming up more it gets colder. I would think it would get warmer as the sun rose more. But walking home I was freezing!I have very sensitive eyes so they start watering and my nose gets super runny, is not fun lol. And this is just the start of the weather....
idk I will cross that bridge when I get there.
Diet wise it is not perfect but way way better. I think I am starting to listen to my body and understand it better. It is just a faint whisper but I noticed it. When I am really hungry, when I am full, when I am just bored.
I also am getting ready for christmas. I put up my tree and some decorations. It is my youngest cat, Kit's first christmas and he is driving me mad. I think I spent 20 mins this morning yelling at him as everytime I turned my back he was either trying to get under the tree (my tree is very small and he will tip it over lol) or knocking off the bells & balls and playing kitty soccer with them. He is by far the worst cat ever about it.
He even jumped up and pulled down stockings that were hung up! Such a brat.
I have 4 cats but Keeba wouldn't cooperate so far lol I am so mean :)
I also bought some gorgeous fake poinsettias some at the dollar store & some at this second hand store. I got red & green glass beads and filled a vase. So beautiful. I love poinsettias but my cats would destroy them + if the cats ate them it can make them sick. So fake ones it is! But these fake ones actually look good.
Speaking of my darling husband, he said some really amazingly sweet things to me yesterday. I was naked and I totally hate being naked in front of people. Not that I am naked in front of anyone other then myself, my husband and that cats! lol But he told me I was so beautiful and I was just like you are crazy. Then he took my hands and was like I know you want to lose some weight but really to me you are perfect just how you are I wouldn't change anything.
It was epically sweet. But at the same time it gives me a prang of concern. Which I know right my DH says the most perfect thing and I have to find something negative about it.... But honestly it just makes me wonder if he will still find me attractive when I lose the weight?
He has always liked curvier women. With meat on their bones, alittle pudgy. Every woman, actress, whatever that he has ever pointed out had some extra weight on them. Not like obese at all but like I am now, though technically I am obese weigh wise! But I am sure you get what I mean.
But my idea of beauty is the total opposite. I love tall and super thin, alittle athletic is fine too. And I don't mean anorexic but definitely very thin. I have major girl crush on Angelina Jolie & Blake Lively. Both of who my husband doesn't think are attractive at all.
It is doubtful that I will ever get that skinny so perhaps it doesn't even matter that much and either way it is not going to happen for a while still lol. But I do know that when I reach close to my first goal (165lbs) my husband will tell me not to lose more weight and prob make comments about it....
Anyways that is just what is filling my head right now... I am doing good with my fitness. I walked 9 miles this week. Yay me. But the weather is getting nasty. It snowed last night but only left just enough to cover the ground. But it was alittle bit slippery in some spots. I can fall down when the ground isn't wet and slippery so it sucked I had a few close calls this morning but didn't fall.
It is also really strange that when I first start walking it isn't that cold but as the sun starts coming up more it gets colder. I would think it would get warmer as the sun rose more. But walking home I was freezing!I have very sensitive eyes so they start watering and my nose gets super runny, is not fun lol. And this is just the start of the weather....
idk I will cross that bridge when I get there.
Diet wise it is not perfect but way way better. I think I am starting to listen to my body and understand it better. It is just a faint whisper but I noticed it. When I am really hungry, when I am full, when I am just bored.
I also am getting ready for christmas. I put up my tree and some decorations. It is my youngest cat, Kit's first christmas and he is driving me mad. I think I spent 20 mins this morning yelling at him as everytime I turned my back he was either trying to get under the tree (my tree is very small and he will tip it over lol) or knocking off the bells & balls and playing kitty soccer with them. He is by far the worst cat ever about it.
He even jumped up and pulled down stockings that were hung up! Such a brat.
I have 4 cats but Keeba wouldn't cooperate so far lol I am so mean :)
I also bought some gorgeous fake poinsettias some at the dollar store & some at this second hand store. I got red & green glass beads and filled a vase. So beautiful. I love poinsettias but my cats would destroy them + if the cats ate them it can make them sick. So fake ones it is! But these fake ones actually look good.
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