Ok it isn't Sunday yet (my official weigh in day) but I just hop on the scale and checked first thing this morning anyways. It shows another gain! @#*! Last week I gained too. How is this possible??? I don't get it and I am more then alittle annoyed and upset/depressed.
Ok I wasn't expecting big number drops. I have NOT been eating super well- but I have been recording everything I eat(except I missed Sunday & can't remember what I had) and I haven't been going over at all. Two days this week I went lower then I should have...
But my point is that if before I was eating a ton of horribly bad things and now I am eating much better and gaining??? It just doesn't make sense to me. I should stay the same or go down. Right??
On top of that I am working out now. Before nada. I was sitting on my butt all day long. Now I am working out & that should count for something. I walked 3 times this week and did my Wiifit as well.
My DH says maybe I am gaining muscle and thats why the gain. But I don't think that works quite like that. I wasn't working out super heavy. As I said I didn't expect a huge loss here from it but I shouldn't be gaining.
This just feels like crap. It makes me want to throw my hands up and say I give up. What is the point? It is too hard. I can't do it.
But I won't. To be honest it kills me and has me so upset obviously. But I won't let it throw me off. I will just see what is going on and change it. I can't half ass this. It has to be with real effort and focus. I have to throw my entire being into it and I haven't been.
1. I need to get my sleep schedule undercontrol for good. I woke up at noon today. I slept for like 11 hours! How is that possible? IDK. I feel bad setting an alarm clock on DH's days off. But such is life. My body is all out of whack because of having a bad sleep schedule for so long and the only way to fix that is to reel it in and set a firm schedule so that I can get back to normal. This will be for my health, wellbeing and balance.
2. I have to get my food under control. I have breakfast down just like I planned to do last week. So that is good one step in the right direction. Now it is time for lunch and dinner.
I will eat a salad everyday for lunch. A nice big yummy salad. It is simple and easy and perfect. I have already planned it before where that salad could be perfectly in all the nutrient needs for that meal. So there is no need to go out of that comfort zone when I am still struggling.
That leaves dinner and snacks as my daily variety. For dinners I am trying to learn how to cook more. It is probably the hardest area for me as I struggle with the right amount of planning and focus. So it will take some practice but starting this week I am working on that. I found two amazing recipes that will be enough for leftovers for half of the week.
I am really excited about cooking. Last week I made chicken in my crockpot which was really good. Nothing fancy I just used it with some rice & veggies but it was good and easy. I also made my husband some porkchops with cheesy rice that he loved. So yay.
3. I need to kick up the exercise. I have been walking and taking it slow and I am good with that. But on my non walk days I need to get up the motivation and energy to workout still. I need to do strength and push myself more.
So hopefully I can refocus myself and do better next week. It isn't easy but I can do this. Though if I don't start losing I might throw myself out a window lol
Ok I wasn't expecting big number drops. I have NOT been eating super well- but I have been recording everything I eat(except I missed Sunday & can't remember what I had) and I haven't been going over at all. Two days this week I went lower then I should have...
But my point is that if before I was eating a ton of horribly bad things and now I am eating much better and gaining??? It just doesn't make sense to me. I should stay the same or go down. Right??
On top of that I am working out now. Before nada. I was sitting on my butt all day long. Now I am working out & that should count for something. I walked 3 times this week and did my Wiifit as well.
My DH says maybe I am gaining muscle and thats why the gain. But I don't think that works quite like that. I wasn't working out super heavy. As I said I didn't expect a huge loss here from it but I shouldn't be gaining.
This just feels like crap. It makes me want to throw my hands up and say I give up. What is the point? It is too hard. I can't do it.
But I won't. To be honest it kills me and has me so upset obviously. But I won't let it throw me off. I will just see what is going on and change it. I can't half ass this. It has to be with real effort and focus. I have to throw my entire being into it and I haven't been.
1. I need to get my sleep schedule undercontrol for good. I woke up at noon today. I slept for like 11 hours! How is that possible? IDK. I feel bad setting an alarm clock on DH's days off. But such is life. My body is all out of whack because of having a bad sleep schedule for so long and the only way to fix that is to reel it in and set a firm schedule so that I can get back to normal. This will be for my health, wellbeing and balance.
2. I have to get my food under control. I have breakfast down just like I planned to do last week. So that is good one step in the right direction. Now it is time for lunch and dinner.
I will eat a salad everyday for lunch. A nice big yummy salad. It is simple and easy and perfect. I have already planned it before where that salad could be perfectly in all the nutrient needs for that meal. So there is no need to go out of that comfort zone when I am still struggling.
That leaves dinner and snacks as my daily variety. For dinners I am trying to learn how to cook more. It is probably the hardest area for me as I struggle with the right amount of planning and focus. So it will take some practice but starting this week I am working on that. I found two amazing recipes that will be enough for leftovers for half of the week.
I am really excited about cooking. Last week I made chicken in my crockpot which was really good. Nothing fancy I just used it with some rice & veggies but it was good and easy. I also made my husband some porkchops with cheesy rice that he loved. So yay.
3. I need to kick up the exercise. I have been walking and taking it slow and I am good with that. But on my non walk days I need to get up the motivation and energy to workout still. I need to do strength and push myself more.
So hopefully I can refocus myself and do better next week. It isn't easy but I can do this. Though if I don't start losing I might throw myself out a window lol
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