"Oh, she got both feet on the ground
And she's burning it down"
"Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes"
This Girl is on Fire!
I feel on fire today! I am just so pumped. I want to take on the world. Nothing can stop me!
I woke up this morning, got ready and went for my walk. At the start of my walk I kept thinking about the article I read yesterday- http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=3_labors_3_babies_50_miles and how she talked about the pain cave.
So many times I would start walking and feel pain, my muscles beggings, crying for me to stop. You get that inner voice saying just give up, you can't do this, you did good enough, etc... It is part physical but mostly mental. But my pain is not real pain. It is little girl whiny pain. It is lazy want to sit on my butt and do nothing pain.
I am not hurt or injured in any way. I keep walking through it and it goes away and I feel like I could keep walking forever lol. So it is just an illusion. I swear it is like dealing with a stubborn child, she will try everything in the book to get her way- lie to you, look up at you with big puppy dog eyes, and then throw a tantrum. But my job is to be firm and say NO and mean it. I have to be the mature adult and know that even with all the protesting in the world it really is NOT going to kill me.
So I kept thinking of her pain cave, how so many people can just push themselves beyond anything imaginable to me. I thought of other blogs I read where some of these women were so heavy or sick that they couldn't even walk at first but they did what they could and built up to it. It just amazes me and is such an inspiration.
It helps me to keep things in perspective. It would be like throwing a huge pity party fit over not being able to afford to go out to a really expensive restaurant when there are people all over the world who can't even afford bread.
So when I want to give in to that whiny child and think it is the end of the world I just need to stop & think if it is really bad or if I am just being a baby.
But my super happy dance moment is that I had put on my tracker a goal for 3 miles a week. How much did I walk? 8.98 miles!! WoW! I burned more calories then I was supposed to for the week as well.
I felt so amazing during my walk today. I wish I could bottle this feeling. I walk to the park then walked around the track there. After I finished walking my mile around the track I wanted to keep going but I am still getting back into exercise and knew I had to walk home and didn't want to push too far.
The only negative was that I really desperately need new shoes. My shoes are horrid and I think part of the pain comes from them. But sadly I just can't afford new ones in any way shape or form, even more so with it being so close to the holidays. I would ask for shoes for christmas but I would definitely want to try them on first and asking for shoes feels too awkward for me. Like I am too poor to buy my own shoes, which is true lol but shhh I don't want them to know that. I usually get some extra christmas money so maybe I will use that to buy new ones, I don't think my husband will like that because we usually use it for food & bills and such but hopefully I can get him to understand how badly I need shoes. Where is a fairy godmother when you need one?
Anyways I am off to do laundry what fun!
And she's burning it down"
"Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes"
This Girl is on Fire!
I feel on fire today! I am just so pumped. I want to take on the world. Nothing can stop me!
I woke up this morning, got ready and went for my walk. At the start of my walk I kept thinking about the article I read yesterday- http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=3_labors_3_babies_50_miles and how she talked about the pain cave.
"Leading up to the race one of the things I was most excited about AND most fearful of encountering was what's often referred to in ultra-sport as, the pain cave. In racing, it's a form of self-imposed suffering that you can choose to face head on or let it destroy you from the inside out. It's basically physical challenge at its max meeting mental challenge at its max. It's one of the main reasons I race--to put myself in the path of something challenging that will make me a better human and teach me something about life."
So many times I would start walking and feel pain, my muscles beggings, crying for me to stop. You get that inner voice saying just give up, you can't do this, you did good enough, etc... It is part physical but mostly mental. But my pain is not real pain. It is little girl whiny pain. It is lazy want to sit on my butt and do nothing pain.
I am not hurt or injured in any way. I keep walking through it and it goes away and I feel like I could keep walking forever lol. So it is just an illusion. I swear it is like dealing with a stubborn child, she will try everything in the book to get her way- lie to you, look up at you with big puppy dog eyes, and then throw a tantrum. But my job is to be firm and say NO and mean it. I have to be the mature adult and know that even with all the protesting in the world it really is NOT going to kill me.
So I kept thinking of her pain cave, how so many people can just push themselves beyond anything imaginable to me. I thought of other blogs I read where some of these women were so heavy or sick that they couldn't even walk at first but they did what they could and built up to it. It just amazes me and is such an inspiration.
It helps me to keep things in perspective. It would be like throwing a huge pity party fit over not being able to afford to go out to a really expensive restaurant when there are people all over the world who can't even afford bread.
So when I want to give in to that whiny child and think it is the end of the world I just need to stop & think if it is really bad or if I am just being a baby.
But my super happy dance moment is that I had put on my tracker a goal for 3 miles a week. How much did I walk? 8.98 miles!! WoW! I burned more calories then I was supposed to for the week as well.
I felt so amazing during my walk today. I wish I could bottle this feeling. I walk to the park then walked around the track there. After I finished walking my mile around the track I wanted to keep going but I am still getting back into exercise and knew I had to walk home and didn't want to push too far.
The only negative was that I really desperately need new shoes. My shoes are horrid and I think part of the pain comes from them. But sadly I just can't afford new ones in any way shape or form, even more so with it being so close to the holidays. I would ask for shoes for christmas but I would definitely want to try them on first and asking for shoes feels too awkward for me. Like I am too poor to buy my own shoes, which is true lol but shhh I don't want them to know that. I usually get some extra christmas money so maybe I will use that to buy new ones, I don't think my husband will like that because we usually use it for food & bills and such but hopefully I can get him to understand how badly I need shoes. Where is a fairy godmother when you need one?
Anyways I am off to do laundry what fun!
Song lyrics by Alicia Keys: Girl on Fire
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