So I just walked 15 mins (well really 17 mins) doing the 5k training plan from sparkpeople. I am on day 1.
First it took me like 45 mins to get out the door. Sigh. Panic attacks are not fun. I first looked up the map like 12 times of where I would be walking. It is in a straight line down one single road.... someone wishing and praying it would magicly change? idk. The ONE thing I hate about where I live now is that I am boxed in with just a very busy main street right in front of me. I have one option to walk and it is down that street. It even has a bit of a ways before I could turn off it to a side street.
That makes it much more difficult for me. All the cars, the traffic, the people it makes me much more nervous and on edge. Even at my best before when I was doing really good and walking everyday I didn't walk on or even cross the busy streets. I sound so silly saying that. I know people do not understand and it doesn't make much sense. But it is very hard for me.
So i fought with myself for a while, tried to change my mind. But I finally just yelled at myself and said there is nothing to be afraid of. There are not monsters out there or some zombie attack. They are just people. And I live in a world full of people and nothing will ever change that. I just have to face it. Face my fears and do it. Having said that made it no easier lol but I did do it.
The problem though is that being all paniced makes me tense and panicky. So I am bad at pacing and walk very fast (even when I specifically try to pace myself and start off slow). And the fact that it is harder to breathe when I am all like that just puts more work for me and I get so much more tired I think.
And on top of that I am really out of shape. WoW.
1/4 of the way and I was ready to die. Like 4 mins in and I am ready to just give up! I finished and as soon as I walked into the door I was out. It is weird because I wasn't really tired or out of breath but my legs burned and hurt so bad that I could barely get my shoes off or move. I tried to stretch but I ended up just laying on the floor crying. = Not good. My calves were just not having any part of this.
IDK if that is right because I am just out of shape or if I was doing something wrong. I will post on the forums and see what others say. I read there is a bit of controversy over when/if to stretch but from what I get alot of people say to stretch after and not before. So I didn't stretch before.
After laying on the floor for a few minutes I did finally get up and stretch though.
And everyone should so have a cat <3 I was all crying like and in pain and as soon as he heard me, my cat runs over and loves me nonstop. Cuddling me all over as I layed on the floor and while I stretched lol Ofcourse right after that he begged for catnip...but he got it after being so sweet lol I keep the catnip in the freezer and he knows it is there so whenever he wants it he goes to the fridge and meows and meows until u give it to him lol. He is a complete addict so he pretty much does this nonstop everyday... lol
So anyways I have 2 rest days now and then Sunday & Monday I will walk a mile. Hopefully that will be alot better.
This is my plan following the sparkpeople 5k your way walking training program
Sun 10/2 1 mile
Mon 10/3 1 mile
Wed 10/5 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/6 1.5 miles
Sun 10/9 25 mins
Mon 10/10 1.75 miles
Wed 10/12 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/13 2 miles
Sun 10/16 30 mins
Mon 10/17 2 miles
Wed 10/19 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/20 2.25 miles
Sun 10/23 40 mins
Mon 10/24 2.5 miles
Wed 10/26 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/27 2.75 miles
Sun 10/30 40 mins
Mon 10/31 30 mins
Wed 11/2
Thurs 11/3 Race Day
I also told my mom and sister about it. And my mom might do it and my sister said she is going to do the 10k. So yay. I am glad they are doing it with me ;)
First it took me like 45 mins to get out the door. Sigh. Panic attacks are not fun. I first looked up the map like 12 times of where I would be walking. It is in a straight line down one single road.... someone wishing and praying it would magicly change? idk. The ONE thing I hate about where I live now is that I am boxed in with just a very busy main street right in front of me. I have one option to walk and it is down that street. It even has a bit of a ways before I could turn off it to a side street.
That makes it much more difficult for me. All the cars, the traffic, the people it makes me much more nervous and on edge. Even at my best before when I was doing really good and walking everyday I didn't walk on or even cross the busy streets. I sound so silly saying that. I know people do not understand and it doesn't make much sense. But it is very hard for me.
So i fought with myself for a while, tried to change my mind. But I finally just yelled at myself and said there is nothing to be afraid of. There are not monsters out there or some zombie attack. They are just people. And I live in a world full of people and nothing will ever change that. I just have to face it. Face my fears and do it. Having said that made it no easier lol but I did do it.
The problem though is that being all paniced makes me tense and panicky. So I am bad at pacing and walk very fast (even when I specifically try to pace myself and start off slow). And the fact that it is harder to breathe when I am all like that just puts more work for me and I get so much more tired I think.
And on top of that I am really out of shape. WoW.
1/4 of the way and I was ready to die. Like 4 mins in and I am ready to just give up! I finished and as soon as I walked into the door I was out. It is weird because I wasn't really tired or out of breath but my legs burned and hurt so bad that I could barely get my shoes off or move. I tried to stretch but I ended up just laying on the floor crying. = Not good. My calves were just not having any part of this.
IDK if that is right because I am just out of shape or if I was doing something wrong. I will post on the forums and see what others say. I read there is a bit of controversy over when/if to stretch but from what I get alot of people say to stretch after and not before. So I didn't stretch before.
After laying on the floor for a few minutes I did finally get up and stretch though.
And everyone should so have a cat <3 I was all crying like and in pain and as soon as he heard me, my cat runs over and loves me nonstop. Cuddling me all over as I layed on the floor and while I stretched lol Ofcourse right after that he begged for catnip...but he got it after being so sweet lol I keep the catnip in the freezer and he knows it is there so whenever he wants it he goes to the fridge and meows and meows until u give it to him lol. He is a complete addict so he pretty much does this nonstop everyday... lol
So anyways I have 2 rest days now and then Sunday & Monday I will walk a mile. Hopefully that will be alot better.
This is my plan following the sparkpeople 5k your way walking training program
Sun 10/2 1 mile
Mon 10/3 1 mile
Wed 10/5 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/6 1.5 miles
Sun 10/9 25 mins
Mon 10/10 1.75 miles
Wed 10/12 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/13 2 miles
Sun 10/16 30 mins
Mon 10/17 2 miles
Wed 10/19 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/20 2.25 miles
Sun 10/23 40 mins
Mon 10/24 2.5 miles
Wed 10/26 Wii stuff
Thurs 10/27 2.75 miles
Sun 10/30 40 mins
Mon 10/31 30 mins
Wed 11/2
Thurs 11/3 Race Day
I also told my mom and sister about it. And my mom might do it and my sister said she is going to do the 10k. So yay. I am glad they are doing it with me ;)
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