Tarot Reading

Last night I decided to do a tarot reading. And it was very enlightening. I pulled just three cards, a simple past, present and future.

Reading tarot cards on the floor is insanely difficult when you have three cats btw lol They were like ooo whatcha doing on the floor? Making it a bit complicated to stay focused lol

Past: Ace of Cups
Ever fitting card for new love. Our past was just that raw potential energyoverflowling love and emotions ready for the world.

At the beginning our love was all giddy & romantic and so fulfilling. It just flowed out of us easily.


Present: 5 of Pentacles
 You have 4's so rooted and solid. A good grounded foundation. And then 5 comes along as the kink in the wheel.

I really liked what it says here:

The fives aren't pleasant, but make us stonger. When trying to read the Fives, think of the Hierophant. The Hierophant represents a teacher, counselor, or priest, someone who advises people when they're in trouble. Likewise, the Fives are unique cards in that each one seems to pose both a problem and an answer. After four fairly smooth cards of growth and development, the fives represent the fly in the ointment. Instability; the changes that make one humble and allow for growth. -http://tarot-advice.co.uk/fives/index.html

Now how much more perfect could a present card be right now?

I read that this card predicts loss and a difficult time. I also read:

Similar to the other fives, there is, once again, the issue of pride and humility.
The problem, "How can I survive this impoverished time without surrendering my pride?"
The answer: "You have to reconsider your values."
While those in this card may have lost material things, even the respect of society, they still have each other. Such times teach us who our real friends are, who is honestly generous, and what really matters to us.
When times are good again, we will remember what we learned in these hard times and not be fooled by sham friendships or capricious social regard. We will know who and what we can really trust.-http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/learn/meanings/five-of-pentacles.shtml

 In that meaning things do not look good at all. But I also read (and sorry I can't remember where I got this note from):

It is a difficult time, as all fives are. "How can I deal with this loss?" asks the Querent. And the answer is, "By realizing that it is no real loss at all." The Querent must understand that while they may have lost material things, the spiritual is still with them. Where there is life, there is hope. They should also be advised that this too will pass. Though it may seem like there is no end in sight, there is. We all go through lean and lonely times. Things will get better.

 I really like that. Like no matter what happens we still have that love there. And how I want to believe more then anything that love can conquer all. That we can heal and get through this.


Future: 2 of Swords
But then the future is this card which is not happy feeling at all.

This is the infamous blindfolded lady with the crossed swords. Crossed swords suggest a clash of ideas or words. The blindfolded lady, indicating impartiality, cannot uncross the swords, but she keeps them still. This is the knowledge of how to compromise, keep these two sides in balance and at peace. Note that this is a temporary compromise. The Querent may be in the middle, or just forced to accept it. Either way, the must be told that it won't last. The direction of your new brain power here is how to keep these two ideas from fighting, to hold off trouble and make peace- http://astrocontent.indiatimes.com/articleshow/2368776.cms

The Two of Swords depicts a young, blindfolded woman who holds a sword in each hand. She sits before a sea filled with rocks and crags that present obstacles to ships which need clear passage. The blindfold shows that the woman in this card is confused about her situation and that she can see neither the problem nor the solution clearly. The swords she holds are perfectly balanced, showing a balanced and stable mind, and that both sides of the situation need to be addressed-http://www.biddytarot.com/card.php?id=59&name=Two%20of%20Swords

She represents the need to move forward using intellect over emotions to figure it all out. Yet I think I would rather just throw myself onto the swords. It seems alot easier.

This is not a fairytale and there is no happy ending. I won't wake up tomorrow or next week even and feel like all is perfect again because it never will be. But I may just need to compromise somewhat & accept what happened and move forward.



It gave me alot to think about. Though it still sucks. I just want to close my eyes and cover my ears and scream and not deal with it. Make it all just go away. I know obviously that it can't happen.

I think the hardest part is that I know all these very lovely thoughts here. I understand point A & I understand point B. But I am totally clueless as to how to actually get from A to B.