I have alot to say but kindof pressed for time ugh.
I tracked my calories today- woohoo! I ate not well, as in no where near enough. I am probably gonna grab something else soon but I doubt I will be over 700 calories today. Not on purpose. I woke up late and then started doing other stuff. i then grabbed a cheese stick and later grabbed some nuts and finally ate dinner but that just all didn't add up to much.
Yesterday I threw chicken in the crockpot with just water and spices and let it sit all day. Then pulled it apart with forks, it was actually literally just falling apart lol. Then weighed it out into 3oz servings and put them in the freezer. So today for dinner I took out one bag and microwaved it with some peppers and a little spaghetti sauce & threw that mix onto a whole grain flatbread with alittle more sauce and 2% mozzarella cheese. It was really good and sooo feeling. Plus it came out to only 355 calories, 37 carbs, 10 fat, 34 protein. I love my idea for cooking once a week and having all my meals for dinner. It was really a great idea.
The bad is that I threw my sleeping plans out the window. ugh being good was right there in my grasp and I just screwed it up again. Why? Why do I do that?? I ended up falling asleep in the chair watching tv then woke up and had to pull myself to get into bed at 3am. Then my husband was sleeping half on my side and he kept kicking me in his sleep. & my mind just refused to rest. I kept thinking about everything. Mostly daydreaming about having a job and my own money. I want to buy new bigger cages for my rats and birds asap. I want to buy one of those cat tree/scratching posts for my cats. I want to get a bookshelf and some of those organizing plastic drawer things. I hate clutter. I loathe it so much like nothing feels clean when it is so cluttery. and right now I am half living out of a plastic bin and all my crap is piled up on top of stuff because I have no where to put it :(
My DH and I just disagree on money alot. We do have the money to buy this stuff but he won't let me. I hate it. I feel so trapped and just suffocated by it. I want freedom. I need a job and my own money so so so so badly.
I didn't get like anything done today lol. I slept till 2, then talked on forums and did online stuff for like an hour. Then I played with my birds some. Trying to hand tame them. It is alot of work. Birds are stubborn. Then while I had the rats out playing I talked with my sister on the phone from like 4 till 6. Then ate dinner. How does time fly so quickly?
Anyways I WILL go to bed early tonight. I WILL wake up early tomorrow. I WILL clean up my house. It is actually fairly clean but the bathroom could use some going over and I didn't do the dishes lol.
I WILL keep track of my calories daily. I need to start working out too. I really want to walk but it has been icky weather so it makes me more nervous. :(
Things WILL be better. One day at a time. I feel so hopeful right now. I really love talking to my sister and having her it just gives me such a better feeling.
I tracked my calories today- woohoo! I ate not well, as in no where near enough. I am probably gonna grab something else soon but I doubt I will be over 700 calories today. Not on purpose. I woke up late and then started doing other stuff. i then grabbed a cheese stick and later grabbed some nuts and finally ate dinner but that just all didn't add up to much.
Yesterday I threw chicken in the crockpot with just water and spices and let it sit all day. Then pulled it apart with forks, it was actually literally just falling apart lol. Then weighed it out into 3oz servings and put them in the freezer. So today for dinner I took out one bag and microwaved it with some peppers and a little spaghetti sauce & threw that mix onto a whole grain flatbread with alittle more sauce and 2% mozzarella cheese. It was really good and sooo feeling. Plus it came out to only 355 calories, 37 carbs, 10 fat, 34 protein. I love my idea for cooking once a week and having all my meals for dinner. It was really a great idea.
The bad is that I threw my sleeping plans out the window. ugh being good was right there in my grasp and I just screwed it up again. Why? Why do I do that?? I ended up falling asleep in the chair watching tv then woke up and had to pull myself to get into bed at 3am. Then my husband was sleeping half on my side and he kept kicking me in his sleep. & my mind just refused to rest. I kept thinking about everything. Mostly daydreaming about having a job and my own money. I want to buy new bigger cages for my rats and birds asap. I want to buy one of those cat tree/scratching posts for my cats. I want to get a bookshelf and some of those organizing plastic drawer things. I hate clutter. I loathe it so much like nothing feels clean when it is so cluttery. and right now I am half living out of a plastic bin and all my crap is piled up on top of stuff because I have no where to put it :(
My DH and I just disagree on money alot. We do have the money to buy this stuff but he won't let me. I hate it. I feel so trapped and just suffocated by it. I want freedom. I need a job and my own money so so so so badly.
I didn't get like anything done today lol. I slept till 2, then talked on forums and did online stuff for like an hour. Then I played with my birds some. Trying to hand tame them. It is alot of work. Birds are stubborn. Then while I had the rats out playing I talked with my sister on the phone from like 4 till 6. Then ate dinner. How does time fly so quickly?
Anyways I WILL go to bed early tonight. I WILL wake up early tomorrow. I WILL clean up my house. It is actually fairly clean but the bathroom could use some going over and I didn't do the dishes lol.
I WILL keep track of my calories daily. I need to start working out too. I really want to walk but it has been icky weather so it makes me more nervous. :(
Things WILL be better. One day at a time. I feel so hopeful right now. I really love talking to my sister and having her it just gives me such a better feeling.
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